Fallen Soul's Prayer

How long will I pray?

How many times will I cry?

How often would I say? 

Lord help me!

I'm weak, my strength is only a whim,

It's just an illusion that I'm strong. 

I need guidance, but for how long

will I ask for an answer that I do not follow?

For the remedy that I do not take

and I keep in secret.

...

Happiness, 

even suffering is an option.

The bitter and sweet fruits of my actions;

they are not the work of anyone but me.

… 

Every moment in my path

is a crossroads,

which way I go, I should decide.

My prayers showed me the way,

My tears allowed me to see.
Without even asking 

knowledge stayed with me,

always reminding me,

helping me to make

the right decision.

Ultimately,

the final decision is mine,

and I am foolish enough

  to choose the wrong path. Oh Lord, 

have mercy, please allow me 

to remain by your side.